Well, I have so many thoughts every minute that I can't get them all together and realize what I really think and want. And I know I'm becoming loss of time (is it right word?), but people really like to grumble. And I know I'm talking with no sense. But it's how I feel lately. I mean long lately. But writing all those stupid things helps me somehow in figure out myself and becoming stronger inside. Because when I write something I know it can't be like these any longer. And I have more strenght to fight with my moods.I shouldn't grumble all the time I guess.